I’m hoping that making this helps me heal. It feels like I’ve cried all the tears I’ve can, but I’m sure there will be more at some point. None of this seems real, but instead it feels like a bad dream that I can’t wake up from. I still can believe that she’s gone…that I will never see her again. It doesn’t seem right or fair that it happened this way. I talked to one of the girls at the programs office today, and she told me that she lost one of her dogs in July…and that she understood where I was coming from, and how hard it is to heal. She said I may only fully accept it once I get home…and that may be true. I got a Grievance ER today, so I could have more time to heal. My Coordinator was real understanding…and said he wished dogs could live forever. Several cast members gave me their condolences, and said if I needed anything I could come to them. So here it is…my tribute to Sheila…
She was such a sweet dog…with a loud bark and a big heart. The only creatures that had to fear her were squirrels, skinks,blue tongues, and bunnies. She’d make her spot anywhere she pleased, and wouldn’t move until she was good and ready. She loved to be around her people, and would always greet us with a smile and a lick. I’m going to miss that smile…not many dogs can smile, but I always felt that her smile showed true love.
When we took her and her brother to the mountains they didn’t like it as much as we thought they would. The only place for Sheila was the house on a couch, bed, or in the sun.
Sheila…my sweet, sweet girl…may you rest in peace and run wild and free at Rainbow Bridge. You can meet Rosie, and play with her, as well as Maggie and Buddy. Run through the grass, and chase all the rabbits, squirrels, and skinks you want…maybe you’ll catch one. Wait for us there, and one day we will all be together again. Sheila…this is for you:
My sweet, sweet girl you’ve passed on
It’s hard to believe you are actually gone.
It seemed that you left before your time
You might even say you were in your prime.
No longer will I hear your welcoming bark
Or have to try and find you out in the dark.
I will no longer feel your warmness at my feet
And I won’t have to worry about you begging to eat.
When you left my girl, a part of me left too
I will spend everyday thinking of you.
My sweet girl, you were a true friend
And within time, my wounds will mend.
Run free my girl, and may you feel no pain
You will no longer have to worry about the rain.
May the sun shine everyday
and may you lay in the rays.
I love you Sheila, with all my heart and I always will
You have a place in my heart and there you will always stay.
Be a good girl up there Sheila, and make sure you behave. I’m sure Rosie will be happy to show you around. May you have never ending treats, and enormous denta sticks. Love, Love, Love to you Goosa….